I was actually ready to go to college. The plan was that I was suppose to leave tomorrow afternoon and then stay overnight at a hotel and then wake up early on saturday and move in. This past week I kinda accepted the whole going away to college thing, but now because of the whole Hurricane Irene situation, I have to wait another week.
It is the weirdest feeling in the world because you are building up all this anticipation to leave and say goodbye to everyone, and your counting down the days and then suddenly that gets switched. It really sucks to put it bluntly.
Right now I am really sad, because I already feel like I am putting in the most effort to stay in contact with people that live 5 mins away from me now. I am really good at keeping in contact, and even though some of my friends haven’t left, I feel as though they already have.
You can’t like a person if you don’t even know them. You might like the idea of them, or you might have some sort of an attraction. But if you did really like the said person, wouldn’t you text them more often than not? Wouldn’t you ask them questions about themselves instead of ignoring the other person altogether? After the first date wouldn’t you put in some effort?
It boggles me how someone can make someone feel like a piece of shit, like a stepped on, lump of cold shit and then expect them to want to hang out. Didn’t you realize that our first encounter had no chemistry, it was just people talking about nothing, and both of them knew what was to come next, or were you too preoccupied in your mind with other thoughts…
And how dare someone try and make me feel guilty, when it was me that put in all the effort
I gave this whole romance thing a shot and I fucking blew it. The one guy that actually likes me, is the one guy I chose to end it with. It is no wonder I never had a boyfriend.
I suck, or maybe this is just the beginning of a horrible roller coaster of romance, and I haven’t even been through the big loop yet. Great.